Don't stop

I had written it out exactly what I wanted to say. But then I stopped. I erased it. There are no exact words. I am not naive. This baby is moving. At any point it could stop. It's that simple. At any point it could stop.

I keep writing "her" and then erasing it. It is not yet a she. It is not yet a he. It is not She, no not my Gabbie.  I don't care which it is, a he or a she, I just want it to live. I don't want it to stop. 

I am not naive. I cannot unknow. I have nothing more to give but my love which is already so much and I am so afraid but I have no control and know that no matter what I cannot stop the destiny. 

With my fear in my pocket, faith on my sleeve, a smile on my face, my heart filled with love, I wait and begin to count the kicks. Please baby whatever you do, know that mama loves you, and wants you to keep kicking. 

Another message from my angel, delivered... I'm listening sweet baby

On FB, I frequent a group in which mediums and psychics give readings.  On occasion they do open readings in which they pick members of the group to give a free reading to.  I'm not really sure how it happens, but twice now I have been given an unsolicited, impromptu reading.  The first one was so spot on it was amazing, the second, was a bit more broad in it's spectrum of topics but again, amazing.  Here is her message, it all made perfect sense, but I'm including here only the elements that would make sense here, others would require too much explanation.  I've put into parenthesis my ties to the message and bolded the parts that are just so striking:

hello now I have been drawn to you! but Ii will say that even if we do not get what we want to hear, it what is needed to be given at the time? all i ask is for feedback to be placed on the group page if your happy and thankful for this guidance x

I’m feeling a young spirit too around and that I’m seeing healing {Gabbie} and, also I feel someone is not well or was unwell or worrying as I see someone being very restless, as not sleeping properly and of a night. {S was very ill this night}

You have healing in your hands and you can help heal others to {My group on FB and my flag project?}

and you've been getting signs, if not you will from a loved one, even if a picture fell down or over or you notice or hear something? trust these signs too as they are to help you also,

You also need faith in a situation that's going on at the moment an important one?? and you cannot control the outcome of this situation or be the script writer of this? it works in divine timing and how his and the angel feel this situation be dealt with and the outcome? you have a spiritual gift to and you sense and so to this situation going on have faith

also trust and remember the signs you being given, dream's, visions, hear a conversation? radio, listen to the messages and inner guidance ?? and your feminine side will help with your spiritual development too?? x god bless

There was more, about larger family issues, but these are so spot on.  I am so thankful that my angel comes through for me and whispers in the ears of people who can hear and listen...  Have faith.  Have faith.  Have faith.  Everything will be okay.  

 

Butterfly wings

This morning G noticed the picture of Gabbie on my dresser. 

G: is that a sleeping baby mommy?

Me: yes that's Gabbie. 

G: Gabbie? But I thought Gabbie was a butterfly. 

Me: she visits us as butterflies but she once was a baby.

G: how did she change? 

Me: well when she went to heaven she became an angel who comes to visit us as butterflies. 

G: yes mommy that's right. Gabbie is an angel in heaven and she's got beautiful wings like butterflies. 

Me: yes baby. That's right. 

I sometimes forget G is only 3. She is so wise and so innocent. 

Just after this conversation I put on a coat I've warn nearly everyday for the last two months. Every day. I reach into the pockets to take out my keys, my phone change. This morning I reached in and pulled out this : 

Hi baby. I love you. I miss you. Thank you for the sign. I'm so glad you are with me.